God, I Just Don’t Trust You

“But he said, ‘O my Lord, please send by the hand of whomever else You may send.’” Exodus 4:13

God has a mission for Moses. An impossible mission. What a privilege! The God of the universe chose Moses to do the impossible. That meant that Moses must be completely reliant on God. That meant a closer walk and talk with God on a moment by moment basis.

At first, Moses struggled with God’s command to go to Pharaoh and demand that he let God’s people go. “Who? Me? But I’m nobody.” Moses looked inwardly and examined exactly how he was supposed to accomplish this impossible task. He did not see a way. Moses had a self- confidence problem when God initially called him to this great task.

God reminded Moses that it was not Moses’ strength and wisdom that was required here. It was Gods’. Moses was simply an instrument. God stated repeatedly to Moses, “I will deliver Israel out of the hands of the Egyptians. I will be with you. I will bring them up out of their affliction.” God was very clear to Moses. This is not about you!

Just like us though, Moses is stuck on self. He can’t get out of his own way. Despite God’s constant reminders to Moses that God would guarantee his success, Moses still doubts God. “But suppose they will not believe me or listen to my voice; suppose they say, ‘The Lord has not appeared to you,’ ” (Exodus 4:1).

God, in His patience, provides Moses with three signs in order to show Moses that God’s got this.

God turns Moses’ staff into a serpent, (Exodus 4:2-5). God would eventually use Moses’ staff to part the Red Sea. It would bring forth water from a rock. It would be used to win a mighty battle for Israel. Here it became a serpent. This staff that would be used for great things, God turns into a representation of wickedness—a serpent. God told Moses to pick up the serpent by the tail. This is the most dangerous way to pick up a poisonous snake. Moses did so, and the serpent became a staff again. God can conquer evil and now Moses physically experience this. He has no excuses! God desires to use us, our hands, to do His work.God turns Moses’ hand leprous, (Exodus 4:6-8). This time God takes Moses’ hand and turns it leprous. He makes the useful, unusable, and back again. What a representation of Moses’ life. God took Moses, a prince, and set him on the backside of the desert. Now God is using him again. God is sending Moses a message. God is sending us a message. Despite our past, our weaknesses, our sin, and our feelings of inadequacy, God can still use us, if we will submit to Him.God turns water into blood, (Exodus 4:9). Finally, God turns water into blood. Blood is judgment and death. God’s wrath will be poured out on Egypt through Moses. Again, God is showing Moses that He is in control. This has nothing to do with Moses’ abilities. It is all about God.

Despite all of God’s miracles and reassurance, Moses still has one more excuse. One more reason to bail out on God. “O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither before nor since You have spoken to Your servant; but I am slow of speech and slow of tongue,” (Exodus 4:10). What is interesting about this final complaint is that Acts 7:22 tells us that Moses was very educated and eloquent in speech. But forty years in the desert tending to sheep may have eroded his ability to communicate well. Perhaps God used forty years in the desert to drain Moses of all self -confidence. Reliance on God is all Moses has now. Moses must learn that only God is able to bring him success. Self-confidence and effort are not what Moses needs. He needs God confidence. Yet, Moses refuses to listen. It’s still all about him.

God’s response to Moses is verses 11-12 is eye-opening. Who made you Moses? Who made man? Who made the deaf, the dumb, the blind? God did! Stop complaining. Stop making excuses. God can use people who are much worse to accomplish His will. Stop thinking you are different. Stop thinking that somehow your problems set you apart from everyone else. That’s arrogance. Now quit griping and go! Do your job!

Yet, in verse 13, Moses still has one focus. Himself. “Lord, please send someone else.” At this point God is no longer playing games with Moses. He will no longer entertain Moses’ excuses. We are done here Moses. Verse 14 states that “…the anger of the Lord was kindled against Moses.” Moses is no longer unc Want to add a caption to this image? Click the Settings icon.ertain about the job that God has called him to do. Moses is unwilling to do the job God has called him to do.

If we want to anger God, all we have to do is be unwilling to do what He says to do. God understands our reluctance at first. He understands our doubts and fears. But over time, God makes a way for us to learn to trust Him as we watch Him work in our lives. But soon we move from a point of uncertainty to unwillingness. We understand God’s power and capability in our lives, but we refuse to obey His commands and purpose for our lives. We slowly reject His voice, His Word, His convictions, and godly counsel from others. We think we know best.

For Moses, God’s anger woke him up. He returns to his father-in-law and told him he was leaving for Egypt. Moses made the move in the right direction. Was it hard? Yes! But in his obedience, Moses got to see God work miracles in and through his life. That does not happen in our disobedience. All we are left with is sin, regret, and a miserable life. Left to Moses’ ways he would have been content to live life stuck on the backside of the desert, when God had so much more for him.

Are you stuck?

What does God have for you that you are missing because you refuse to fully trust Him?

Have you kindled the anger of God in your life, while He is pointing you in a direction that you refuse to go?

It’s time to stop making excuses for my actions or inactions and follow God, no matter how uncomfortable it might be. The results are amazing.